Buffy's blood test results were not good 10 days ago. She has been in poor health for the past year and a half but now it's to the point where she's on so many meds and there's no hope of improvement. Mom said that it would be for the best if we have her put to sleep and even the vet agreed. I was hoping that she would be around until at least her 13th birthday in February. The vet said that we have been very good owners but I can't help thinking that I could have done better. I already wrote about the hating myself for not trying the non - steroid allergy med and don't want to get into that again. I feel as if we poisoned her because of this. We will be taking her to the vets on Thursday afternoon and I have been very emotional about this. We will be giving her lots of love and attention and enjoying every last moment with her this week. I love her so much - she is like a member of our family. I have so many good memories of her and will always cherish these. I pray that I get to see her again in the afterlife.