June 8, 2015- My Duran Duran Fascination
I didn’t really get into Duran Duran until after “Ordinary World” first came out,
but then it was only a little bit. I was mainly into country music in the 1990s
up until 1998. I don’t even really remember much about them from the 1980s. I
did have a 45 of their “Hungry Like the Wolf”. It was one of only 10 that I had
in that decade.
I never watched
MTV or music videos on other channels either. Wait, I did see Michael Jackson’s
“Thriller” around the time that it premiered. Even Mom was watching that! I
only saw parts of DD videos in specials about the 80s on VH1 and other channels
in the 1990s. I never saw a full video of theirs until around 2007. I got the Greatest CD that came with a DVD then.
I didn’t look in
those teenie bopper mags when I was a kid either, except for the 1 or 2 that my
Grandma next door got for me because she thought that I had a crush on Michael
J. Fox. I liked him in the movie Back to
the Future, that’s all.
I remember wanting
to laugh when my grade school classmates were talking about which one of the Duran Duran guys that they each
had a crush on. I simply did not get why they were so fascinated by them back
then. I guess that I kind of do now though.
I’m kind of
ashamed to even admit that I am a DD fan. It’s mostly been for the past 11
years. I didn’t even go to their official website for the first time until 2
years later. I learned about the history of this group then. I felt like I was
doing research for a term paper on them.
I would love to say
“I just like their music” when people ask me who is my favorite DD guy. I could
also simply say that they are all good looking in their own way. A couple of
times I have admitted which one it is. I can’t help feeling embarrassed about
this. I have got shame issues that I am trying to work on, esp. when it comes
to music and certain guys.
I used to have many
dreams with my music people in them, esp. Duran Duran. I was worrying that this
might be kind of obsessive but my therapist said that it isn’t. It’s not as if
I have any control over what I dream about.
Should I be
ashamed to even admit that I see a therapist? My issues are anxiety- esp.
social, extremely low self-esteem and depression. Hopefully I will be able to
overcome all of this. My music does help to calm me down and cheer me up a
little. Why is it that I often choose DD to do this?
Why do I feel that
it is okay for everyone else to like Duran Duran but for me it seems sort of
wrong? I used to feel the same way about Bon Jovi but not so much now. I’m kind
of over that phase. I didn’t start liking them until after “It’s My Life” came
out in 2000. I guess that it’s better late than never for both of these groups.
Part of me is just
hoping that liking DD a lot is just some phase that I am going through, like my
Beatles/McCartney/Wings one of the late 80s and early 90s. It’s not a crime for
me to be a fan of theirs. I have to convince myself to believe this. And it’s
not a sin to admit that bassist guy is my favorite. Yikes, I can’t even type
his name, that is how embarrassed that I am.
I am hearing
“Planet Earth” playing in my mind’s stereo. Now I’m thinking how I’d like to
listen to the Night Version of this- love the extra bass. Damnit, does this
make it seem like I am semi-obsessed with that guy? -Probably not. Actually,
I’d love to see this video. I get a kick of the puffy shirts in that. Bring those
back into fashion- just kidding.
I feel kind of
embarrassed for thinking that watching Duran Duran videos makes me happy when I
am having a depressing day. That sounds semi-obsessive. The thought that
hopefully I will get to see them in concert again sometime this year is like a
tiny spark that will help me to get through the tough times. Gosh, that sounds
so darn corny.
